I'm Finally Not Afraid

By: NarutoAddict765

"...just want to be friends..."
that's what was said a third time
and you got my hopes up again
but I just let it pass by

i didn't reply when i found those words
i just hoped they'd disappear
why is he so obscure?
i mumbled in my head

my friends gave me a sympathetic look
and i put on a fake smile
implying that it didn't hurt
though inside my heart spiraled

she looked me in the eyes again
and clearly found the pain
she saw the way i looked at him
she knew it wasn't a game

so i got home in fear
in fear of what was next
we talked a little while
and my heart jumped from the text

he admitted that he likes me
this whole time he was scared
scared of what we would become
frightened from his past

that horrible "I don't know yet."
whispered once again
but this time it was different
sincerity would bet

this time he understands
he understands the love i give
just hes confused and scared and lonely
he doesn't know the best

so now i'll just be waiting
he's a little bit delayed
but this time i'm optimistic
i'm finally not afraid.