“Call from Autumn”

By: NarutoAddict765

The first thing that made me cry tonight at youth group was all the memories of my aunt that died April 29th, 2008. Today is May 7th, 2008. I didn't cry just for my aunt, but for realizing that my family is gradually decreasing each year. My Aunt Judy is the 8th person that has died in my life, but the main reason I cried was for my best friend, Coral.

We were asked tonight to write down on a piece of paper what we think God sees us as. I think he sees me as a 'fighter' after all of the endless crap I've been through. I thought about every little detail in my life, and let all those painful tears trickle down my cheeks. Luckily, Autumn and Torran were there helping me, and comforting me. My two best friends, and meeting them is probably the best thing that's ever happened to me in my whole life.

After I was done crying I had a little bit of fun and was my normal self for awhile. Autumn and I brought these fake pop-guns to youth group and after getting superly hyped up, without thinking, I pretended to shoot myself.

My friend Taylor snapped, "You don't know the first thing about suicide."

My face turned pale and I ran up to him with a 'sorry' look on my face, he forced a smile.

"Trust me… I do know about it." I quickly stumbled trying to help myself not mess up again.
"Me too," he replied, and looked down, "I've almost commited suicide.”

My faced turned into a shocked expression and I ran into him with a bone-crushing hug. I explained to him all of the crap I've been through, and he explained all of his to me. It made mine seem like nothing...One of the things he said was,

"You don't know what it's like to walk in on your girlfriend holding a gun to her head."

"No I don't," I replied, "but I do know that that's what Coral is close to doing." He gave me an apologetic look and hugged me again.

As I was walking back to the mass of friends, I blocked out all noises except for the strike of my feet on the huddled woodchips. My sight was frozen to the ground as I held back the tears. I approached Coral and lifted her chin up as I pulled her to the side.

I looked straight into her eyes with my gleaming ones and said, "Coral, please....please, don't commit suicide. Stop hurting yourself."
.………………………………Silence……………………………….
"I can only promise you that I’ll try." Those were the words that crushed me like a can.

I screeched, "Please...." as a single tear fell, still keeping precise eye-contact.

She looked at her feet, went to play around again and I walked over to Autumn. I started bawling telling her everything that just happened and she comforted me.

I was walking back to the mass of friends when I was finished and my friend Michelle stopped me asked me, "Hey want to go for a walk?" I shook my head yes in compliance and we walked all around the church building as I explained every detail to her.

Before we returned I said, "Look at her...she looks like she's having the time of her life, but inside she's really breaking," I added, "sometimes like you huh?"
She shook her head yes and I gave her a hug.
We both walked back to the mass and I said, "Ugh Taylor, you got me thinking of too much tonight."

"Sorry," he stated.

"It's fine, don't worry about it."

Coral slowly walked away from the group with her head bowed low and crawled under the play set. I sat next to her and hugged her for a really long time.

I finally said, "We all love you so much."

I wasn't quite sure if she was crying or not but it didn't really matter. I went to get Autumn to come help me and she grabbed Coral's hand. About three minutes later my aunt called and she was here to pick me up, great.

I said to Coral, "We really do love you."

I told Autumn I was leaving and she said she would take my spot.

Coral said just before I left, "You don't even know what's wrong with me."

I replied saying, "No, I don't. But I do know I'm going to comfort you every second of it."

She said," I know," and looked at the woodchips in her hands again.

I said to Autumn, "I love you got to go." and gave her a quick hug.

I gave Coral a last hug as well and walked to the car. On the way back home it was really quiet. I’m guessing my aunt could tell something was going on and gave me concerned look, but I easily disregarded it. When I got inside our little house I went into my room and started writing this story. Then, the phone rang.

“Call from Autumn” was pasted on the dead center of my blood red cell phone.

I answered it quickly hoping everything was alright, “Hello?”

“Hey,” she said, “the most amazing thing just happened.” There was a calm and happy tone to her voice, yet she sounded like she just got done crying, I was confused.

My voice was full of concern asking, “What?!?!?!”

“When I said goodbye to Coral I told her to stop hurting herself, because every time she cuts her self it worries us,” stated Autumn, “so she handed me a small gum box that was folded in a ragged square as if something was encased in it. I asked her what it was and she told me just to take it. As I was about to walk back home I opened it and stopped dead in my tracks. Inside of it was her razorblade.”

Searching for the right words all that stuttered from my mouth was, “Wow.”

“Lyndsey,” Autumn said demandingly starting to cry, “Coral gave me her razor.”

I replied now starting to cry too, “That…really is amazing…”

We both cried awhile and I decided to talk to my aunt about the whole night. She said she was glad to know that Autumn and I are just good friends to Coral.

That night as I was lying in my bed, my eyes stayed open longer than usual and I stared at the blank space on my wall. A smile formed on my face as I couldn’t stop thinking about what Coral did, she was really really trying. Autumn and I really love Coral, more than some people have the ability of doing for knowing someone such a short time. We wouldn’t trade her for anyone else in the world because… she’s amazing. I hope to never see an object filled with so much hate hurting my friend again.