uhm...w00t?

The beginning and middle of my day was absolutely amazing.

My first 0 period class of the day was choir, we basically practiced for our end-of-the-year test all day...it got BORING!

Next, I went to my first/second period class: Science...I basically got to chat with Autumn: all period because she is awesome and because a bunch of people were working on out Heritage Day Advisory project...being Autumn and I we didn't feel like making and effort and didn't have to, so we just hung out and chatted XD.

Then, it was time to load the buses for the Melodrama field trip...for some absurd reason I wasn't found on the list o.O so I had to go to the office and call my Uncle. He gave them a bunch of info and I have to pay Drama Mama back for buying me lunch . I know, and Drama Mama knows for a fact that I turned my permission slip in so it was weird that the office misplaced it like that.

I got on the bus and found Autumn freaking out because it took a looooong time for all of that to happen. Torran: , Autumn and I all shared on seat (even when there was more room in a different seat ) We got squished and listened to our awesome ipods XD. Torran got bored...whoops.

The melo-drama was really really cool and we got to hang out with people we used to hang out with every day. Liam, (this boy I was (and still am...unfortunately) practically in love with.) and Gryphon:

The way back we talked to our other friend Taylor awhile too and that was also pretty cool since we're not as close with him anymore either. At the melo-drama Torran went to sit with his crush...on the way back home too, but it didn't matter because we had ourselves preoccupied anyway XD.

As soon as I got back to school...everything collapsed. It was 6t period now (oh joy -_-' my least favorite teacher...this was our conversation.

Teacher: Oh hey, welcome back guys...how was the Melodrama?

Me: It was awesome!

Teacher: I was asking the seventh graders...not you (note, I am in 8th grade but a seventh grade math class because I am stupid in that general area.)

Me: Well I went too....

Teacher: I'd like to hear the seventh graders Lyndsey.

Me: oh...kay?

Me (a bit later): There were some younger kids there that were really annoying...they wouldn't shut up and stop screaming.

Teacher: Oh, annoying, interrupting, loud, obnoxious...kinda sounds like you huh?


Ya, isn't she a wonderful teacher?

Later I found out that my friend Bee : was mad at me...great. I asked her and she wouldn't tell me because she said she'd probably end up screaming at me. SO I didn't bother her.

Torran dropped me off at home and I started what I usually do...boot up computer, check e-mail, and not-what. Then, Liam signed on...I asked him about his day...how he was doing and stuff and explained to him all of the crap that happened to me...out of nowhere he says..."I'm beginning to like someone else." (Note: Liam said he would go out with me in high-school...he was almost sure of it...we became better friends and I've been in love with him on and off for 2 years.) I kept asking him who it was but he couldn't trust me enough to tell me. He just broke me again.......he led me on a 3rd time.

...............He signed off..................

I was crying...hard.
I called Bee...she explained to me why she was sad and comforted me about Liam...we forgave each other quickly...here's a link to why she was sad/pissed: [link]
I called a few friends and explained to them everything...and they comforted me really well and said, "If he was to ever come back to you...and ask you out in the future...don't go out with him...you can't risk him leading you on again...and after all you've been through, you do not deserve it." I agreed with them and they are all right.

Lyndsey: I was basically saying thanks for leading me on again.

Liam: look, at least I told you

Lyndsey: yeah, and i was right...you don't understand how much i like you...and you didn't have to get my hopes up by saying you'd go out with me in high school either...

Liam: look i said maybe. I might, doesn't mean I will.

Lyndsey: a phrase like, "Oh it will hold." is not maybe.

he said that after I said in a previous conversation: I'm just scared of what the future may or may not hold.

Liam: look

Lyndsey: what? It would at least make me stop crying if i knew that girl that deserves you.

Lyndsey: are you there?
Lyndsey: fine, you don't have to tell me.
Lyndsey: *sigh* c'mon...talk.
Lyndsey: liam...please.
Lyndsey: are you planning on replying?
Lyndsey: meh.
Lyndsey: IM me as soon as you get back.

Liam has signed out.

Lyndsey: *sigh*

He doesn't understand how much i love him.

Here's just a glimpse of GOOD news...Coral (one of my CLOSEST friends) sent me an amazing e-mail that made me cry...because she is full of excellentness XD

Autumn is finally coming with me to visit my family!!!

that's about it. "/



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People I watch
WAYYY too many to name


My Real Life Friends XD



Clubs I'm In XD
Not any at the moment

-lyndsey

Finally...after almost two years, I'm actually getting somewhere with this guy I love. I thank God so much, and I'm really optimistic about the future. :]]
Star testing is finally over, w00t!
I hope Autumn's day went well because she gotz in trouble for kissing her boyfriend...was I not supposed to say that love?
Uhm...I'm a cool fanfiction...
and writing a fanfiction with Autumn XP It's a Ryden.
I love you guys!

Now here is an interesting thing Autumn has shown me:

LIMERENCE

Sure teenagers are capable of love! But for most people, the love affairs we have when we are young don't last as long as they might when we are older and have time to learn more about the different kinds of love we might have for each other. This is because there are different kinds of love, and all of them are "true."

There's the kind of passionate and exciting love that people first feel for another person when they fall in love and can't get the other person off their minds. There's a cool scientific word for this kind of love — limerence. It happens to young people and old people. It is a wonderful and very stimulating kind of love. It makes two people feel absolutely crazy about each other so they want to be together every minute and can't imagine being apart. But limerence usually doesn't last a very long time. Maybe a year or two, but not usually much more. Which is a good thing, because limerence is very exhausting. You might never get anything else done with your life if it lasted forever.

There's also a scientific word for the kind of love that sometimes comes after limerence — "companionate" love. It is a very strong caring for someone else that is not all about passion and excitement. People show companionate love by being there for each other, solving problems together, sharing hard times as well as good times, helping each other grow, and by being patient with each other. Companionate love can keep a couple bonded when limerence ends. It lets people become capable of having much longer, committed relationships.

Some people believe that limerence is the only kind of "true" love, and when it ends, their relationships also end. Because they tend to move from relationship to relationship throughout their lives trying to recapture limerence, they may not be able to sustain lifelong, companionate relationships.

Of course there are also other kinds of "true" love. The love of a friend, of God, of nature, and of family.

It's not always easy to know if or how we love someone romantically — that's true for both teens and adults. For most people, it takes years of experience, communication, and work to understand and value the difference between these kinds of love. Some people learn it within a single relationship. Most people learn it from having more than one. This is why most parents and caregivers hope that young people let themselves have more experience with love before they make their relationships legally permanent.

So your idea to wait is a very good one. It will let you grow, explore, and understand the love you have for each other and where it might take you.



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and ALL of the people who watch me XD




People I watch
WAYYY too many to name


My Real Life Friends XD



Clubs I'm In XD
Not any at the moment

Some People That Need A Bit Of Credit (:
You are an amazing writer and my best friend.
Thanks for being there for me on dA, YOU ROCK!
Can't read this cuz' for no reason he got banned ): I miss you.
You are an amazing writer, and you are one of the few people that really compliment me greatly on my poems...thank you.
You are really really cool and I've fallen in love with your amazing fanfiction To The End [link]
It's really fun writing a story with you, your amazing
I'm finally starting to get to know you and you're amazing and a spectacular writer. Thanks for being a great friend.

-lyndsey

After all this mess, I decided not to delete my account because so much stuff is going on right now and it's not worth it. Thanks for all of your support though XD.

Only some of the people I watch,
and ALL of the people who watch me XD



People I watch
WAYYY too many to name


My Real Life Friends XD



Clubs I'm In XD
Not any at the moment

Some People That Need A Bit Of Credit (:
You are an amazing writer and my best friend.
Thanks for being there for me on dA, YOU ROCK!
Can't read this cuz' for no reason he got banned ): I miss you.
You are an amazing writer, and you are one of the few people that really compliment me greatly on my poems...thank you.
You are really really cool and I've fallen in love with your amazing fanfiction To The End [link]
It's really fun writing a story with you, your amazing
I'm finally starting to get to know you and you're amazing and a spectacular writer. Thanks for being a great friend.

-lyndsey

Okay, well I'm planning on making a different deviantART account plainly because I really don't want to be known as NarutoAddict765 any longer C:. So I'd like ALLLLL of my watchers to PLEASE reply to this saying, "Yes" or "No" if they will watch me on my new account....I'm letting you all know that I will not be checking messages or notes on this account anymore and that I would really like it if you faved all of my poems again and watched me again.....please? i would really love it.

Only some of the people I watch,
and ALL of the people who watch me XD



People I watch
WAYYY too many to name


My Real Life Friends XD



Clubs I'm In XD
Not any at the moment

Some People That Need A Bit Of Credit (:
You are an amazing writer and my best friend.
Thanks for being there for me on dA, YOU ROCK!
Can't read this cuz' for no reason he got banned ): I miss you.
You are an amazing writer, and you are one of the few people that really compliment me greatly on my poems...thank you.
You are really really cool and I've fallen in love with your amazing fanfiction To The End [link]
It's really fun writing a story with you, your amazing
I'm finally starting to get to know you and you're amazing and a spectacular writer. Thanks for being a great friend.

-lyndsey